Mercury .x
^and_we^were_never^alive

Music blared out into my ears, sounds of my life, lyrics i held close blasted out of my headphones. It was like they were connected straight to my mind. Music connected to mind, mind connected to heart.

You can illustrate your death in romance
I can show you something so much more than words in my hands.
I felt the dead-end price you pay for everyday
This is your last night,
Suicide kept tight
Your gone tonight.


I walked through the many streets in New York. Busy everyday life went on around me. But i took no notice, none of that held any importance to me what so ever. Each step was an involuntary move. I was like the unconscious mind in a conscious body. These last few months could be described as a living hell. My messed up world had been twisted more. My brother had found me.

Look what I’ve done now,
you’re dying from love and you’re bleeding

It wasn't that i didn't want to see him. Part of me really wanted him back in my life, but another part of me screamed at me to get the hell outta there. I was starting to get back control on my life, then he comes in. Mars, to me, is a constant reminder of the times in my life before i ran away. It had taken me years to get out of that depression i had been in when i was at home. I had cut all my ties to that life, i wanted a clean break, that made it easier to heal, to start again. Then, a month ago, Bang. He's there, unearthing memories that were long locked down.

It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I want to bleed through my heart again.
It's days like these, that make me feel,
like I might as well be on my own again.


Maybe i was concentration on my own problems too much, i knew i did that too much. Habit. I'd never really stopped and taken in why he's come and found me, if that was what he was intending to do by coming here. Guilt. That feeling of guilt came creeping over me. I'd left him again, just like i had a few years ago. It was like our lives were on repeat. Something had clicked in me, I'd have to find him. But how?

Sunrise, sunset, will you wash away the rain?
Sunrise, sunset, can you wash away the pain?


Easy. Instinct.

Two roads split off from here,
and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am,
and who I want to be.


I wandered. Searched. I looked everywhere. Then, there he was. Something didn't seem right. He wasn't himself. He was sat up against the wall. I stopped for a moment, pulling one headphone out of my ear, leaving the other in, my lifeline still running into my mind and down to my heart. I took a few seconds to gather up my thoughts and grab control over my body. I directed myself toward him and my legs took forced steps in his direction. Stopping again a few paces away from him. Lips parted and i spoke for the first time in what seemed like forever.

What's happened?


So mute and beautiful to me
A promise kept on high
An angelic look at life through open eyes.
Don't be scared
We'll make it work.
We're right on time
Don't make things worse.
Now I'm right there by your side.